And yet I seem to have a lot of it in my life lately.
I’ve always been a bad sleeper.
Hard for me to get to sleep, and then I very often wake a couple hours later and can’t get back to sleep.
It’s been worse lately.
I’m hardly sleeping at all.
And, I’m one of those people that needs sleep to function.
So, I’m not functioning very well….
Kinda on autopilot.
I think it’s stress related….
I have too many decisions, and I’m second guessing other decisions, and I don’t have any answers!!
I think my brain just goes into overdrive and won’t shut off….
And I KNOW I can trust God with my life..
but He won’t just TELL me what I am to do.
Like, clearly.
With a voice booming down from heaven.
Ah well.
I am fine, really.
My van is falling apart.
Just when in for an oil change and tune-up, ‘cause it needs an Emissions Test.
Long story on that one.
Turns out it needs a tie rod.
Like, in the worst way.
”Unsafe” was used to describe it.
And a new battery.
There’s something wrong with the one in there.
I knew that, as I can’t keep the doors open for any length of time or the battery is dead.
All this to say, way bigger bill than I anticipated.
Isn’t that always the way?
I was over at Mom’s this afternoon, to help paint her living room.
It’s gonna be purty….
It wasn’t all work though.
When at Mom’s there is always sitting on the deck
and sipping wine and talking.
The only “socializing” I get.
I didn’t get any pictures of the painting, or the kids in the pool, or any of the cool stuff.
But I did get some.
My Poppa
My baby brother.
I used to change his diaper.
Hunny, the neurotic dog.
She’s the daughter of my JRT, Freddy.
Her Mom was a Cairn Terrier.
She’s about the size of a rat.
Not a very flattering picture,
but the best of all I took.
She’s very hard to get a picture of!
Some of Mom’s deck flowers.
And the moon.
The moon was gorgeous.
And last nights sun set was amazing.
It was HUGE!
We were leaving soccer, and I thought at first there a huge neon sign!
Quin thought it was a stoplight.
Huge and bright and amazing.
Before I could get stopped and pull out my camera it had sunk quite a lot.
It wasn’t quite as impressive.
But it still is pretty.
Just seeing God’s creation like this soothes my soul.
Verses in my life right now.
Phil.4:13
I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me.
2 Cor. 12:9
He has said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for power is perfected in weakness." Most gladly, therefore, I will rather boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may dwell in me.
I hate the not sleeping, too.
ReplyDeleteNice pic of Pat! "I used to change his diapers..." XD
Moon pics are cool. Sunsets are awesome.
Love 2 Cor.
And... my God shall supply all your needs, according to His riches in mercy, by Christ Jesus.
ReplyDeleteYou'll be fine.
Autopilot sucks huge. Brain misfires. I hear you loud and clear.
ReplyDeleteThe non-sleeping and the problems with the van suck pretty bad.
ReplyDeleteGod is pretty awesome.
And those are nice pictures. I'm glad the one of me is more than just my...chest area. :) Even though it's not my birthday. Thanks for that.
Amen to these Promises. I totally understand these feelings of autopilot, things in need of money where money is not found, family enjoying the moments of time together and the beauty of our Creator's Hands (which happens to include you, Heather).
ReplyDeleteBless you, my friend.
May you find His answers waiting just around the corner ♥